Beginning to know that when you are being called into service by God a process has to happen. When you cry out "use me Lord" He will begin to show you, you. This morning I realized that there will be a cleansing that I was not prepared for at all. A cleansing that will take you into a place of deep repentance, thought, and crying out. God has to cleanse you of all the filth in your mind, in your spirit and especially in the heart.
Even though I have been praying for forgiveness from him and asking for Him to show and tell me those that I need to seek forgiveness for, I did not expect that there would be other areas that He would speak to me about. Areas that the enemy still has control in my life. Those hidden sins that need to be removed and repented of to be of service to God. Those hidden sins that we hold onto because they are a place of comfort. Ummmm!
Like Jesus spoke to the Jewish leaders in Ephesians, God is speaking to me about those areas that satan is still the father of in my life. This process of threshing is hard, emotional, and relieving. I realize that the prayers I have been praying to God, asking Him to go into those hidden places of my being, were just touching the surface of Joanne. I know now that when my heart yearned bad enough and when my soul begin to beg for more of Him, that those hidden places would be and are being exposed. Hurt? Yes! Relief? Unbelievable! When you read a scripture and it tears you apart, when the scripture cause your inside to mourn, there is still cleasning to be done before you can move on.
God has a time, a place, and work for me to do and be. Here I am Lord, send me! He is preparing me. He's preparing me to walk in His ways an to truly know His voice as He directs my steps to my assignment.
He's preparing me!
Sunday, January 3, 2016
Saturday, December 26, 2015
Letting Go & Moving into His Purpose
December 26, 2015
As I restart this blog I am filled with many mixed emotions. I know that God has keep this blog opened all these years for His Purpose. When I began this blog years ago, my oldest was settling in Savannah, my son was completing his last year at WCU and looking forward to seminary school in California, my youngest was looking at colleges in the southern area of our country. I had entered back in school, Kaplan U, and this blog was a requirement for a class. The year was 2009 and my God had other plans for us all, and yes, I thought it would have been deleted by now. Last year my niece came over because I wanted to start a blog and she found that I already had one on google. I walked away from any further thoughts about it, but this morning the Lord placed it back on my heart again, so I opened it to begin writing. I thought that the title of my blog was, "For this Season", but was overcome when I logged in and "His Purpose" showed up.
I am starting this blog because I know that "His Purpose" for my life is calling me into a greater relationship with Him. "His Purpose" for my life is to let go of all the pain, hurt, anger, grief, unforgiveness, and bitterness I have been walking around with since I was 5 years old. I know that in order for me to move into "His Purpose" for my life I have to forgive, love, heal, and be filled with His joy, so that I will walk in His plans He has for my remaining years on this earth. I know that everything that I have experience and remember, was and is, to help someone else heal, but the healing has to begin with me.
I am starting this blog to begin my healing and to walk in my calling, "His Purpose" for the rest of my life here on His earth. So today if you are reading this blog and I have hurt you in any way, I ask for your forgiveness. If you are reading this blog and you know the power of prayer, I ask that you will continue to lift me up as I overcome the fear of sharing my life, as I go places that many will feel unsafe, as I begin letting go so that He will used me to reach those who have felt the pain I have, so they can begin the process of healing, and as I walk out "His Purpose" for my life. For I am about to embrace my life according to His will for me. Much Love!
As I restart this blog I am filled with many mixed emotions. I know that God has keep this blog opened all these years for His Purpose. When I began this blog years ago, my oldest was settling in Savannah, my son was completing his last year at WCU and looking forward to seminary school in California, my youngest was looking at colleges in the southern area of our country. I had entered back in school, Kaplan U, and this blog was a requirement for a class. The year was 2009 and my God had other plans for us all, and yes, I thought it would have been deleted by now. Last year my niece came over because I wanted to start a blog and she found that I already had one on google. I walked away from any further thoughts about it, but this morning the Lord placed it back on my heart again, so I opened it to begin writing. I thought that the title of my blog was, "For this Season", but was overcome when I logged in and "His Purpose" showed up.
I am starting this blog because I know that "His Purpose" for my life is calling me into a greater relationship with Him. "His Purpose" for my life is to let go of all the pain, hurt, anger, grief, unforgiveness, and bitterness I have been walking around with since I was 5 years old. I know that in order for me to move into "His Purpose" for my life I have to forgive, love, heal, and be filled with His joy, so that I will walk in His plans He has for my remaining years on this earth. I know that everything that I have experience and remember, was and is, to help someone else heal, but the healing has to begin with me.
I am starting this blog to begin my healing and to walk in my calling, "His Purpose" for the rest of my life here on His earth. So today if you are reading this blog and I have hurt you in any way, I ask for your forgiveness. If you are reading this blog and you know the power of prayer, I ask that you will continue to lift me up as I overcome the fear of sharing my life, as I go places that many will feel unsafe, as I begin letting go so that He will used me to reach those who have felt the pain I have, so they can begin the process of healing, and as I walk out "His Purpose" for my life. For I am about to embrace my life according to His will for me. Much Love!
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