Beginning to know that when you are being called into service by God a process has to happen. When you cry out "use me Lord" He will begin to show you, you. This morning I realized that there will be a cleansing that I was not prepared for at all. A cleansing that will take you into a place of deep repentance, thought, and crying out. God has to cleanse you of all the filth in your mind, in your spirit and especially in the heart.
Even though I have been praying for forgiveness from him and asking for Him to show and tell me those that I need to seek forgiveness for, I did not expect that there would be other areas that He would speak to me about. Areas that the enemy still has control in my life. Those hidden sins that need to be removed and repented of to be of service to God. Those hidden sins that we hold onto because they are a place of comfort. Ummmm!
Like Jesus spoke to the Jewish leaders in Ephesians, God is speaking to me about those areas that satan is still the father of in my life. This process of threshing is hard, emotional, and relieving. I realize that the prayers I have been praying to God, asking Him to go into those hidden places of my being, were just touching the surface of Joanne. I know now that when my heart yearned bad enough and when my soul begin to beg for more of Him, that those hidden places would be and are being exposed. Hurt? Yes! Relief? Unbelievable! When you read a scripture and it tears you apart, when the scripture cause your inside to mourn, there is still cleasning to be done before you can move on.
God has a time, a place, and work for me to do and be. Here I am Lord, send me! He is preparing me. He's preparing me to walk in His ways an to truly know His voice as He directs my steps to my assignment.
He's preparing me!
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